Your pregnancy appetite may surprise you. You may shift from "anything I eat makes me throw up" to "if I don't eat 15 cheeseburgers NOW, I will pass out." It doesn't make sense and it can be super frustrating for you and your partner to figure out. The great news is that you don't have to!
We hear about the depression, the anxiety, the baby blues and the very severe psychosis that can occur after we have babies.
But what about the rage?
The inexplainable, over the top, mind numbing rage that takes over your body and pushes away every person around you.
You love your baby! You love the snuggles, the kisses, the closeness and all that's involved with caring for this sweet baby. But you are angry. You hate your spouse, your older children get on your last nerve and you don't know how to reconcile it with the love that you feel for them at the exact same moment.
The rage bubbles up inside of you until you don't even recognize yourself and you don't know why!
This is postpartum rage. It's normal, it's horrible and it's so confusing. You are not alone.
Postpartum rage is another way that postpartum depression manifests itself. It can be an outward sign of postpartum anxiety. If this is something you are dealing with, take a deep breath. Know that you are not alone. Call your doctor and keep your emotions in check. If you ever feel like hurting your child or baby, call your doctor immediately.
Your rage will start to dissipate but the timeline is different for everyone. Try to take care of yourself by penciling in self care. An hour here or there to be away from your responsibilities and have time to find who you are again, can be very helpful in dealing with the rage you may be feeling.
You are an amazing mother. This rage doesn't define you. Take a deep breath, you are doing great.
We live in a world where the increasing norm is that we don't live near family. Long passed are the days when our neighbors are our family. Life, jobs, military assignments and school take our families to every corner of the world! That doesn't stop us from having more children (thank goodness!) but it does make things a little harder.